Feb 28, 2021 The Relapse Formula


Relapse is one of my favorite subjects because I lived in it for two long years. After five years of sobriety, I found myself chugging warm chardonnay in a parking lot.


Relapse brought me shame. Shame brought me more relapse.


I would drink, feel like a failure (both the world...

Nov 23, 2020 The Deep Yes

I’d had 5 years of sobriety the day I found myself in the parking lot of a CVS, pouring warm Chardonnay down my throat. That was the first day of my relapse: a two-year tumble back down the rabbit hole of addiction. 

Two years is more than 700 days. At least half of those mornings, I...

Sep 10, 2020 SHE RECOVERS Podcast Interview: Trauma and my addiction

It was such an honor to appear on the SHE RECOVERS Podcast! I love any chance to connect with Taryn or Dawn, and their podcast honors and works through the idea that everyone is recovering from something.

In this interview, I talked about the ways that my past trauma detonated my use of alcohol,...

Sep 07, 2020 What is the Difference Between a Program of Recovery, a Sponsor, and a Recovery Coach?

I often get questions about what I do and why someone would want a recovery coach when programs like AA are free. My job is to complement a program of recovery, adding a whole new layer on top of your sponsor—something more high level.

An important note here: I am a child of AA. I’ve...

Oct 27, 2019 Shame-free Sundays

I have to confess—I am feeling a bit off this Sunday morning as I write this. I over-indulged last night, and my body is feeling the effects. As my alarm went off at 7 am, I had a moment of panic as I realized my head hurt and my body felt a little off. Had I drank last night?

In the...

Oct 26, 2019 12 Tools to overcome a deep craving episode

Disclaimer: I am not a medical professional. This guide is not intended as medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. If your symptoms are acute, call 911.   

As we step out of addiction, we all go through moments where we feel a deep craving for the substance/behavior that was the...

Dec 17, 2018 Recovery starts with me

The first time I got sober in 2009, my idea of “recovery” only pertained to my drinking. I didn’t see any other issue to personally recover from, other than the very clear toxic relationship I had with Cabernet (and Merlot, Chardonnay, Stella and all that gang). So long as I...