Mar 12, 2021 Gluing Things Back Together


When I started my recovery journey in 2009, I thought sobriety was only about “not drinking.” I had no idea sobriety would become the avenue through which I would become human again, and find the way back “home” to my own heart. 


In the depths of my...

Feb 28, 2021 The Relapse Formula


Relapse is one of my favorite subjects because I lived in it for two long years. After five years of sobriety, I found myself chugging warm chardonnay in a parking lot.


Relapse brought me shame. Shame brought me more relapse.


I would drink, feel like a failure (both the world...

Jan 26, 2021 Preparing for all the feelings


We don’t talk enough about all the feelings that happen in early sobriety. 


I've talked about committing to The Deep Yes, taking a first step, and understanding the elements of "The Work" of recovery (A Program, A Toolkit, A Community). I've also talked a lot about...

Nov 03, 2019 Loving the crap out of my inner addict

I am writing to you wrapped in blankets, cradled on a hammock under pine trees, in the middle of an East Texas forest.  The air is chill, the sky is deep blue and my cellphone has zero bars. Zero. It’s bliss. You have permission to mildly hate me.

I brought myself to a retreat in the...